God's Timing Is Perfect, But Will He Ever Think It Is My Time?

Well, I had my b/w done at 3pm here and they said to call them at 5. They all seemed so positive when I told them about the spotting.
I called them back at 5 and the lady told me that they had not gone over the test results with the doctor yet, so could I call back in 30 minutes. I begged her to tell me the results, and she finally told me that it was BFN. They did want me to call back anyway to see what the doctor had to say. When I called back, they said that it was less than 1. So NEGATIVE. I tried to ask her what could be going so wrong every time? She told me that it could be 1)that I have a problem with Barry's cells (like an allergy) - I would have thought that it would have impeded fertilization if that was the case, 2)a genetic problem (which they don't suspect), or 3)just a natural thing. They said that there is a test to find out if I am allergic to him but they said it is really expensive. So, we will have to talk with the doctor about it. I guess we will see.
Then we are getting ready to have to start the next cycle. So, as soon as my period shows up, I will get going again. I am not sure how much longer I can do this (financially, physically, or emotionally). It sure takes a major toll on me.